guilty as charged.

THIS IS SOOO NOT GOOD. i just woke up. that means, i wouldn't be able to go to church. i feel so rotten.

this is the first time i missed going to church here in singapore. and for a lame reason: i overslept because i partied last night.

so many things happened last night. no mama, i didn't sleep with anyone. i didn't smoke.

i drank some sprite with vodka for my 'free' drink. i don't think that they serve anything that doesn't have alcohol in it. and i danced of course.

at first i just grooved with ivy, joseph, sundeep, and a bunch of other hall people. but later rachelle, evelyn, ivy, and i got introduced to four guys also gyrating on the dance floor. my partner is named Qiyan.

He's a Singaporean, and he's quite nice. He didn't take advantage of me, unlike other guys who just felt free to to let their hands roam in that dark and very crowded dance floor. We danced for a while, and then evelyn and rachelle had to leave already. naturally, ivy and i told our partners we had to leave too, so i just shook qiyan's hand and said bye-bye.

but we didn't leave yet. joseph still wanted to dance. haha! so ivy and i looked for some place where we could sit and rest our tired feet. i also didn't want to hang around the dance floor because i was afraid of seeing my partner again. (i told him i had to leave already, right?) we found some cozy chairs on one corner of rouge. then sundeep sms-ed me and asked us where we were coz he's tired too. i told him to meet me near the entrance so i will lead him to where ivy and i are coz it's hard to describe the location in sms.

while i was waiting for sundeep, guess who i bumped into? Qiyan again.

Qiyan: Hey, i thought you already left?

Me: (in my mind:oooops.) Oh, the other two girls we danced with left already, but my other friend still wanted to dance, so cannot leave yet.

and blah-blah. After a while,

Qiyan: Hey, would you like some drink?

Me:(in my mind: haha, first time in my life someone offered to buy me a drink in a club. and since i'm sooo thirsty...) yeah, sure.

and blah-blah. oh, before the drinks part, he asked me if we could exchange numbers too. ok.

i sat on the cozy chairs with ivy and sundeep while qiyan went off to look for his friends. aftre a while i got an sms: he's on the dance floor if i'm interested. off we (sundeep, ivy and i) went after finishing the drink.

we danced again. later, time to leave. qiyan went off to look for his friends who disappeared on the dance floor one by one. joseph, sundeep, ivy, and i took a cab home after stopping by 7-11 to buy much-needed water.

on the cab, qiyan sms-ed me again to say he had to go because his friend is stoned, and he's sorry for not making a proper exit. i told him it's ok. i already left too. then sms again. some flattery.

to mama: don't worry. i do not go gaga over guys i just meet on clubs. i'm aware that their sincerity is questionable, and clubs are not the ideal place to look for lifetime partners. i'm a big girl now and i know how to take care of myself.

at least my 15 bucks didn't go down the drain for nothing.

and just when i thought everything is over and i could now proceed to have some quality time with my pillow, someone sms-ed me at 4:30 am and dropped the bomb. of course i wasn't able to sleep right away.

that L-word complicates everything.