shit happens.

in expounding this cliche, just imagine a scenario wherein it's been raining for weeks and you are so in dire WANT to get out to play under the sun. but just when you thought all hope is gone, gray clouds begone and a glimmering ray of the much-awaited sun peeks through the heavens. and when you blithely look up to the clear blue sky to bask in its mere presence, a bird flies by and its shit lands right on your face.

no, i am not pissed. and blaming myself for deliberately giving up on the CN1111 test won't magically tranform all the rubbish i wrote on the test paper into decent solutions. for this one, i'll just laugh at myself and to all my other classmates who will be sharing the same fate as mine.

this midterm test is quite unusual, in that we were given the option to answer questions 1-3 and leave at 1pm, or answer questions 1-5 and leave at 1:30pm. my initial plan was to answer only 3 questions so i could still attend physics lecture at 1. but since i KNOW that i DO NOT KNOW how to solve questions 1 and 2, i resorted to answering questions 4 and 5 too. that means i am officially choosing option #2: answer all five questions and leave the exam hall at 1:30pm.

i left at 1pm. actually i told myself to stay, but by the smirk on my friends' faces who were already leaving...

what's the use of prolonging the agony?

at that moment i could almost hear my bed calling me, because for the past 24 hours or so, i only had a grand total of an hour's sleep. if you call that 'sleep'.

yes, i was wrong. i gave up so easily. i still could've used those precious thirty minutes to answer my midterms instead of blogging right now. so, shoot me.

i am just so illogical. i was so motivated to do good for this test, sacrificing precious sleep.

i am tired. see you in dreamland.