why must the world be so cruel? why must my pathetic midterm test score be laid bare in the ivle for all the freshmen engin students to see? why must i be embarrassed like this time and again? why am i in engin when every sem proves that i am not fit to become an engineer? why can't i just draw and paint, live by the seashore, have a garden and maybe plant camote too?

why must i run out of dental floss? yes, i am the type of person who would floss at least twice a day. i am the type of person who would brush my teeth after every meal if it's possible. i am the type of person who thinks that not taking a bath (before going to bed AND especially before going to class) is an abomination.

apart from the members of my immediate family, only one other person appreciates my drawings even though i know for myself that they're not very good. i thank God for him.

until when will i be the butt of this cruel joke i am living right now?

last night (or the other night?), i was surprised (more of ALARMED) while i was checking out the internship website. i was made to choose my area of interest for the internship. i didn't choose ENGINEERING outrightly. i didn't know what i was looking for. i clicked for LAB ASSISTANT but they were only taking from the Life Science faculty. see, i don't know where i am going.

the future is bleak. i don't understand why i have to go through this.

but then, i don't have to understand.

so now i put my trust in the Lord for i know He will never fail me.

and i also hope that winter will never come during summer. haha. how sweet.=)