I Will Sing

I can't bring myself to read the Bible nowadays. And it's sad.

Funny when everything's so difficult, I tend to make all sorts of promises to God and I strive to remain untainted, pure. But now that I'm worry-free and I'm again in my comfort zone, it's like "Ok God, you do your business and I do mine."

Sometimes reading my archives puts me to shame. Sometimes in wide-eye wonder I ask, who is this vain, arrogant whiner who has taken over my blog - and my life?

I am hungry and I have nothing more to say for now. I'll end this post with the first part of Don Moen's song I Will Sing, though some parts are not really relevant to me at this time.

Lord You seem so far away. A million miles or more it feels today.
And though I haven't lost my faith, I must confess right now that it's hard for me to pray.
But I don't know what to say and I don't know where to start.
But as you give the grace with all that's in my heart.

I will sing.
I will praise even in my darkest time through the sorrow and the pain.
I will sing. I will praise.
Lift my hands to honor You because Your word is true. I will sing.