kiss slacking goodbye

tonight, i kiss slacking goodbye.

yes, all the while i have been pretending to be studying when in fact i have been staring into empty space. yes, i am the best when it comes to daydreaming. and my math notes seem to power this invincible feat of mine. but if i still want to keep this prestigious scholarship, then i must pass the crown to someone else.

which means..i would have to stop thinking about jersey number 19 every second of the day. because it's not doing me any good anyway. and i learned something quite disturbing about him last night. siya ay...nang away ng babae. and for a very lame reason which would never justify his rash behavior. bakla ba talaga siya?

but he seemed so nice the first time i met him at the central library. i was about to leave when i bumped into an extremely good-looking stranger who waved at me with that big toothy smile plastered on his face. during that period our block in KR was having this angel-mortal thingy wherein the seniors would send anonymous letters to the freshies. for a moment i suspected (and fervently hoped) that the stranger i met was my angel. but i still haven't seen his face in our hall so i was quite disappointed in considering that he cannot be my angel because he's not from our hall in the first place.

i was very, very intrigued about who this stranger might be and what he's got to do with me...so i prayed day and night that i might see him again. haha..imagine my euphoria when i saw him queueing up for food in the dining hall. that's when i found out that he's also a kent ridgean...and an A-blocker like me! but my heart broke when prabs confirmed that he (jimmy neutron boy genius) wasn't my angel.

hay..anyway..i'm not that crazy about him. the fact that i go to arts canteen every thursday, rain or shine, with or without companion, doesn't really tell much. and that i signed up for hall promotion board just because he's the head..and was flabbergasted when i was rejected because i thought the interview went so well and i was flashing my million-dollar smile the whole time...really. like a have a chance. pageant boy material and me? wake up fool, this fairy tale's got to end.

so..i'll just stick with serway and thomas and silberberg...they're all calling for me while i was having an imaginary rendezvous with jersey number 19.

thank God i still have 3 more weeks to revise for the finals. i'm not allowing this scholarship to slip through my fingers like sand and do nothing about it. some people already learned it the hard (as in extremely hard) way and already served as warnings to the rest. i am not that stupid to not notice the bright, red light that's flashing right before me.

and like that hotdog commercial, i'll end this post with...

goodbye, jimmy.

this is insane!!

totally wrong!

i TRIED to study..but my mind is wandering. the past two hours of attempting to inject power series into my saturated brain turned out to be futile. see, now i'm still in power series while the rest of the class is already done with laplace transform. heck, i heard they're already done with all the lectures! see, i haven't been attending math lectures because i couldn't understand my group's lecturer. (by the way, when you rearrange the letters comprising MATHEMATICS PROFESSOR, you'll get O, THAT SPECIES FROM MARS?) i'd rather watch the webcast lectures done by another lecturer because he's way, way better in explaining stuff.

haaay. jersey number 19. good-looking even from afar. and me, far from good-looking.
hey i take that back.haha..just got the line from talentime last night. but really, i don't stand a chance. waaaaay too good-looking for me. if i stand beside him i'd just look like a wet rag.

and maybe for him i'm just a little kid.

sheesh. the reason why i'm here, blogging once again, is just to kill time. prabs still owes me a story (about who else?) so i went to his room and caught him shaving his head AGAIN. so he told me to buzz off and come back an hour later. which is about..now?

haha..babu!

i miss my family.

send my love to heaven

great. nabasa ko na naman ang heartbreaking story sa friendster na first time kong nabasa noong 1st yr high school pa ko. tandang tanda ko pa ang binulalas namin ni emma habang gumigilid ang mga luha sa aming mga mata. ang sigaw namin "lahat ng torpe mamatay!"

eh kasi naman. basta yun na.

tonight nabasa ko uli..haha kala ko tapos na ako sa ganung stage..i mean yung may masyadong teenybopper na reaction. pero ganun pa rin pala sigaw ko. haha. hay.

actually it's just a typical best friend story and the girl dies in the end. pero ewan. kinurot pa rin heart ko the second time around.

?

pano ba maging totoo?

how do you know when things are better left unsaid?

BEST TEACHER I EVER HAD

by David Ovens, Condensed from Life (October '90). Time and Life Bldg.

Mr. Whitson taught sixth-grade science. On the first day of class, he gave us a lecture about a creature called the cattywampus, an ill-adapted nocturnal animal that was wiped out during the Ice Age. He passed around a skull as he talked. We all took notes and later had a quiz.

When he returned my paper, I was shocked. There was a big red X through each of my answers. I had failed. There had to be some mistake! I had written down exactly what Mr. Whitson said. Then I realized that everyone in the class had failed. What had happened?

Very simple, Mr. Whitson explained. He had made up all the stuff about the cattywampus. There had never been any such animal. The information in our notes was, therefore, incorrect. Did we expect credit for incorrect answers?

Needless to say, we were outraged. What kind of test was this? And what kind of teacher?

We should have figured it out, Mr. Whitson said. After all, at the every moment he was passing around the cattywampus skull (in truth, a cat's), hadn't he been telling us that no trace of the animal remained? He had described its amazing night vision, the color of its fur and any number of other facts he couldn't have known. He had given the animal a ridiculous name, and we still hadn't been suspicious. The zeroes on our papers would be recorded in his grade book, he said. And they were.

Mr. Whitson said he hoped we would learn something from this experience. Teachers and textbooks are not infallable. In fact, no one is. He told us not to let our minds go to sleep, and to speak up if we ever thought he or the textbook was wrong.

Every class was an adventure with Mr. Whitson. I can still remember some science periods almost from beginning to end. On day he told us that his Volkswagon was a living organism. It took us two full days to put together a refutation he would accept. He didn't let us off the hook until we had proved not only that we knew what an organism was but also that we had the fortitude to stand up for the truth.

We carried our brand-new skepticism into all our classes. This caused problems for the other teachers, who weren't used to being challenged. Our history teacher would be lecturing about something, and then there would be clearings of the throat and someone would say "cattywampus".

If I'm ever asked to propose a solution to the problems in our schools, it will be Mr. Whitson. I haven't made any great scientific discoveries, but Mr. Whitson's class game me and my classmates something just as important: the courage to look people in the eye and tell them they are wrong. He also showed us that you can have fun doing it.

Not everyone sees the value in this. I once told an elementary school teacher about Mr. Whitson. The teacher was appalled. "He shouldn't have tricked you like that," he said. I looked that teacher right in the eye and told him that he was wrong.

SALAMAT WAYNE

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despite all these academic insanity that's crippling my once-fully-functional brain, i'm glad i could still think of things to be grateful for..my God, my family, my friends, my education...=) suddenly i feel blessed and rejuvenated. at long last!

*pOsiTiVe* post!

i'm feeling fine today=)

and i'm pleasantly surprised.

physics lab and electrical engineering test on the same day didn't make me feel cranky at all.

in fact, i had more than my usual share of laughter on a typical day.

i want the world to know that i love my friends. even though sometimes i pretend that they don't exist, they are very much real. even though sometimes i would like to believe that no one really cares for me and that i don't really have any true friends, i know that's rubbish.

right now, i'm just feeling grateful for having them in my life.

a sigh of relief

hay.


thanks sundeep.

suPerB!!

whoa!!! KR culture night damn good!!

ang galing. ang galing galing. excellent! i mean, kung mkabigay sila ng ganung show na internal lang, then i can't wait to see the kr hall production.

wow!

amazing..ahh..galing galing!!!

pinanindigan talaga ang motto ng kr na to seek, strive, and excel..

congrats ivy! ayan ha, todong DEBUT na talaga..aside from the fact that she's celebrating her 18th birthday today..acting debut na rin..hehe=)

jashep!!! choir!!! ang ganda ng pagkablend ng mga boses nyo..

at ang KR dancers..karapat-dapat lang na nireject nila ako sa audition. hahaha...haaaay i was mesmerized..with their totally groovy moves and glittering get-up..

hay..every second was worth it. kahit na may midterms ako sa sabado..at dapat nag aral na lang?? naah. it was to good to be missed.

and i repeat.

achingly.

handsome.

is.

an.

understatement.

jimmy neutron boy genius

achingly handsome is an understatement

humility

WHOA!!!

this SHOULD be quick coz i have a lab report to finish.

i just feel i shouldn't let this pass.

today i learned a very important lesson on humility. first, i never expected this day to turn out the way it did. ivy and i are ok now. haha. i mean, i realized just now how swollen-headed and twisted-minded i was. i was keen on pretending that everything is ok between the two of us, when in fact it's not. now i know how hard it is to swallow one's pride for the sake of friendship. it's like swallowing a very bitter antidote for cough. icky, but it would make you loads better.

and another dose of my pride. i finally got to my senses and seeked the help of my CM1502 lab partner. i couldn't get the solubility product constant CONSTANT for all the solutions. i already spent the whole weekend trying to figure out the right calculations to be made, but to no avail. i was very hesitant to ask for her help because i didn't want her to think i'm stupid. (well, i guess that IS being stupid. usually, i only ask help from people who are close to me. kung hindi, mamatay na lang ako kakasolve but i won't ask for help). anyway, i decided to bug her for my queries and she willingly helped me. now i know which part of my calculations had gone wrong. the concept is right but the volume of potassium bitartrate should be 25 ml, not 100 ml. see, napaka careless. hindi ko pa makikita sa lab manual na 25 ml nga kung di nya nabanggit. paulit-ulit kong binasa ang manual pero 100 ml talaga nakatatak sa brain ko.

so there. humility. bow.

God, i don't know why i'm in engin. i don't like math, i don't like physics..and now..i'm starting not to like chemistry as well. can i just be a hermit and live in a cave? what is your grand plan for me eh?

what's this mandurugas look all about?

um, nagfriendster kasi ang mabait na bata (yours truly), at nakita ko ang mga pics ng mga pipol i knew from high school at...ta-daa!

baka ganun lang talaga ang trend. kasi pag highschool may haircut inspection pa ang mga guys. ngayon free na.

morrie

i like my CM1502 professor. no, not "like" as in "infatuated with". he is old. he is how i imagine mitch albom's morrie to be.

i could really see that he wants the best for us, his students. in the way he conducts his lectures, you could really sense that he has this earnest desire that his students really learn something from him.

i am pissed with my CM1502 classmates. they don't appreciate him much.just now while he was still talking some of them grabbed their bags and left the lecture theatre already. talk about being uber disrespectful. this prompted him to end the lecture earlier than the usual.

i've always thought that relatively only very few students take this module because the seats in the LT are never filled during lectures. but just this wednesday when we had our midterm test, LT7 was suddenly packed with people. and now, friday lecture, after the midterm test, only about a half of those who took the test showed up. i mean, the absence of those who never come for lectures became very apparent. i could only imagine how professor siow feels about that.

i'm planning to give him an anonymous letter..just to let him know that someone appreciates what he's doing. i hope it will make him happy.

AND NOW MY MOM SAYS IT'S UP TO ME WHETHER I WANNA GO HOME OR NOT.

AFTER ALL THE SPORTS TRYOUTS ARE OVER.

AFTER I GOT REJECTED FROM HPB BECAUSE I WAS SO SURE OF GOING HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

sabi nya naman kasi kahit anong mangyari uuwi daw talaga ako.

aaargh. i don't need her to tell me now that it's up to me. i need her to be firm that she wants me home on the holidays.

i've already accepted the fact that maybe next year i won't be able to stay back in KR because i won't have enough points. because i don't have enough ECAs. because i got rejected in comms. because i'm going home on the holidays.

I LOVE KR. i love my room. i appreciate my room. my room and i are one.

so now what? tell jimmy i'm not going home after all, so please consider me once again in HPB? this i am, well, more than willing to do...

but what about handball? rugby? there won't be any more tryouts!

no mama, i don't want it to be up to me to decide. i want you to demand that i come home this december.

letter from ivy

no, of course i'm not gonna post her letter here. sa amin na lang yun.

i appreciate her gesture of giving me a very honest letter. it's not a friendly, mushy kind of letter. it was real and personal. minsan pambatok sa kin in a nice, civil way. sa kanya lang ata ako nakatanggap ng ganun. and i will treasure it.

i find it amusing because even though we're just neighbors, we write letters. even when we were still in KE. we write letters to settlle our differences and misunderstandings. and i emphasize the "S" in letterS, differenceS, and misunderstandingS.

and ivy, if you're reading this, thank you.

test!

WORLD HISTORY
Describe the history of the papacy from its
origins to the present
day, concentrating especially, but not
exclusively, on its social,
political, economic, religious, and philosophical
impact on Europe,
Asia, America, and Africa. Be brief and concise,
yet specific.

ASTRONOMY
Define the universe; give three examples.

MEDICINE
You will be provided with a razor blade, a piece
of gauze, and a
bottle of Scotch. Remove your appendix. Do not
suture until your work
has been inspected. You have 15 minutes.

COMPUTER SCIENCE
Write a fifth-generation computer language.
Using
this language,
create a computer program to finish the rest of
this exam for you.

PUBLIC SPEAKING
Twenty-five hundred riot-crazed aborigines are
storming the
classroom. Calm them. You may use any ancient
language except Latin,
Hebrew, or Greek.

CIVIL ENGINEERING
This is a practical test of your design and
building skills. With the
boxes of toothpicks and glue present, build a
platform that will
support your weight when you and your platform
are
suspended over a
vat of nitric acid.

MECHANICAL ENGINEERING
The disassembled parts of a howitzer have been
placed in a box on
your desk. You will also find an instruction
manual, printed in
Swahili. In 10 minutes a hungry Bengal tiger will
be admitted to the
room. Take whatever action you feel is
appropriate. Be prepared to
justify your decision.

ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING
You will be placed in a nuclear reactor and given
a partial copy of
the electrical layout. The electrical system has
been tampered with.
You have seventeen minutes to find the problem
and
correct it before
the reactor melts down.

BIOLOGY
Create life. Estimate the differences in
subsequent human culture if
this form of life had developed 500,000 years
earlier, with special
attention to the probable effect, if any, on the
Philippine social
spectrum circa 1640. Prove your thesis.

RELIGION
Perform a miracle. Creativity will be judged.

MUSIC
Write a full piano concerto. Orchestrate and
perform it with a flute
and drum. You will find a piano under your seat.

LOGIC
Take a position for or against truth. Prove the
validity of your
position.

CHEMISTRY
You must identify a poison sample which you will
find at your lab
table. All necessary equipment has been
provided.
There are two
beakers at your desk, one of which holds the
antidote. If the wrong
substance is used, it causes instant death. You
may begin as soon as
the professor injects you with a sample of the
poison.

PSYCHOLOGY
Based on your knowledge of their early works,
evaluate the emotional
stability, degree of adjustment, and repressed
frustrations of each
of the following: Alexander of Aphrodisias,
Ramses
II, Gregory of
Nicea, and Hammurabi. Support your
evaluations
with quotations from
each man's work, making appropriate references.
Translate all
quotations in Tagalog.

SOCIOLOGY
Identify the sociological problems which might be
associated with the
end of the world. Construct an experiment to test
your theory.

ECONOMICS
Describe in four hundred words or less what you
would have done to
prevent the Great Depression.

MATHEMATICS
You have 60 seconds to mentally solve the
mathematical problem below.
Begin. 8,256.091 + _________ - ________ x
________
¸ ________ = -
38.07623

(Bonus question: Why is 11 not pronounced
onety
one? Provide a full
numerical analysis in justifying your answer.)

POLITICAL SCIENCE
There is a red telephone on the desk beside you.
Start World War III.
Report at length on its socio-political effects,
if any.

ART
Given one eight-count box of crayons and three
sheets of notebook
paper, recreate the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel.
Skin tones should
be true to life.

PHYSICS
Explain the nature of matter. Include in your
answer an in-depth
evaluation of the impact of the development of
mathematics on
science.

i was really amused while reading this email from may anne, my classmate back in high school. personally, i think magaling naman talaga si may anne mag rap. kumakanta rin ng love songs or any songs, at may boses naman talaga..yung parang paos na style na nasa tono. pero forte nya talaga ang pag rap, and to think babae sya... talbog pa ang mga boys sa mga nakakabulol na rhymes nila eminem, etc.

hapy bday ste-phen to tha' e., watz ur handa and when ka manlibre? hope ur doin' fine, now im rappin wid no rime  this time, pasensya kung baduy ang aking style.. ur one in a million friends, a special friend til the end, being yer friend i don't pretend, to become yer enemy i don't intend, belive me coz il be always there for you, i wancha to know that damn, i miss you.. know wut(yes?) im trying to be fair, and the only thing that i can giv u is my warm extraordinary care.. cheer up na, plz don't be sad na.. pag sikat na ako hayaan mo, ito-tour kita.. ingat ha... ü truly yours, youngmah!!! break it down!! ü

@>-

i still love you.

puerile cogitations

because promises are made to be broken

because friendships are only temporary

because love hurts

because nothing lasts forever.

should i post this or not?

this i promise myself. i will not be blogging until my chem test is over (wednesday next week), so i might just as well blog my heart out now.

i miss wayne. ngyek!!! i just had lunch with him together with the fellow pinoy pips right? because i miss my buddy. last year i could have grown sick of seeing his face every single day. my dinner buddy (and sometimes breakfast and lunch too). my church buddy. as i've mentioned somewhere sometime before, i don't know why i struggled to keep up with his seemingly unusual personality. sometimes it's hard to fight the urge of wanting to land my fist on his face. i've told myself countless times never to speak to him again, ever, and i fail. and even if i've deleted his number for the nth time in my phonebook, it would always find its way back.

and what sets the smoke off my ears sometimes is the way he says "bye!". for me it's like he's very happy to finally see you off so that he could carry on with more important stuff, rendering you..um, unimportant.

even if he is such a lousy listener, doesn't know how to show appreciation, and sometimes the ultimate ego buster, well, he is still my best friend here. he's the one i am most comfortable with. i even let him keep my dirtiest secret. he never runs out of stories to tell. hulog ng langit coz he's helped me many times already.. lalo na ngayon sa programming hehe. sometimes people who don't know us much think that we are an item because we're always together. but of course, we are not. (magunaw muna ang world hehe).

anyway, right now i don't want to mess his schedule with his new perfect friends and mga alaga. i've never told him this..but i once read in his blog that he doesn't remember a time in his life when he was in dire need of a friend and couldn't have survived without that friend's help. well, if and when that time comes, i would like to be that friend.

to someone who loves me immensely..

Dear God,

I don't want to hurt you anymore.

I'm sorry.

Love,
Korinna

haha

hahaha..i just bathed, and as i was rummaging through my closet for a nice, warm tee, my AP shirt caught my eye.

and then a funny realization hit me right smack in the face.

ano nga uli elective ko nung 3rd year?

ADVANCED MATH. maam eggy rocks. haha.

e nung 4th year?

ADVANCED PHYSICS. starring maam joo-be.

may advanced advanced ka pang nalalaman jan.

hee.

i smell good.

end of post!=)

oh-kaaay. (smirk)

no robinson, it wasn't that difficult.

it's just that i'm too stupid.(here we go again).

anyway i'm getting used to flunking every math and physics test nowadays so it's..well..ok. (but of course, not really).

conversation a while ago: (walang kinalaman si my brother look-alike)

"alam mo ba bagsak rin ako sa math?"

"ha?" (with a tone which implies 'ang dali dali lang naman ng math test, pano ka babagsak?')

NOT the 'oh..sorry..don't worry you'll do better next time' tone.

i didn't answer. no need to state the obvious. e di nakaya ng brain ko eh. emphasize ko pa?

oh-kaaay.

no offense meant. spur of the moment post.

The Resurrection

hee! i'm baaaack!!!=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!!=)

today, i was at the right place at the right time TWICE!!

lucky me.=)