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Thursday, March 31, 2005
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i know im not supposed to blog.

but of course if it's anyone special's bday il broadcast it as seen in my previous posts.

now i'm blogging because I CAN'T TAG on my own tagboard...(ok, shoutbox, actually).

PAOLO, just tell me when ka online and i'll follow suit. miss na kita masyadong masyado.

KRISTIA, 3RDY, IVY...thanks for being happy for me. haha.

FeRrOn, hello=) hindi ko alam pano ilagay yung KEWL na smiley dito.

robs, smile ka rin. ang pogi talaga ni robs. haha.

by the way, paolo, meet robs. robs, meet paolo. the two of you are so alike in so many ways.


Wednesday, March 30, 2005

why is march 30 significant?

because not only one, but TWO of my favorite people were born this day years ago.

i'm so happy that even google is commemorating van gogh's birthday. yey!

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tatet (haha natawag na ba kita nito dati?)...so sad u got the flu on ur bday. get well soon ok...take care...im only just an sms/email/call away if u need me. God bless. =)


Monday, March 28, 2005
MA1506 Lecture 21

was not just about partial differential equations.

one guy actually had the guts to ask for prof tan's help to woo a girl. before letting the students go for the 10-min break for the 2-hour lecture, prof tan said he has a surprise. there is this guy who likes a girl in his class, but she doesn't know and the guy is too shy. then prof tan showed a powerpoint slide with a cartoon of a man, lots of hearts, and the words : CUIYAN (or something, not sure)...TAKE MY HAND...

then prof said the guy is not too shy anymore coz he's gonna come out in the open to profess his feelings for the girl. and so he did. clad in black long-sleeved top, he approached his girl and gave her flowers.

yeah, just like in the movies, with all the other people clapping and cheering.

who said maths lectures are boring? definitely not prof tan's.

disclaimer: i wasn't part of the live audience. just watched this in webcast. anyway, assuming that all 1,506 students registered for MA1506 would go and watch the maths webcast lectures as preparation for the finals......


Friday, March 25, 2005
happy birthday

my overseas call to the philippines:
the remaining S$2 in my mobile phone.

your return call when i ran out of load in my hp:
PHP 70.

our friendship:
PRICELESS.

Happy Birthday My Dear Friend Cyril=)
i love you to bits.


Thursday, March 24, 2005
my overindulgence in food and blogging

must now come to an end.

im in one of the computer clusters in engin right now, 15 minutes away from my next lecture.

today is the 24th. yesterday was officially one month away from my earliest exam, and therefore i shall not waste, um spend so much time , ranting and raving about anything i deem as blogworthy. even though i view my life as rather exciting (because i do not want to think of it as a bore), i shall resist every urge to share every 'happening' that's on with my life.

and also, since the exams are just around the corner, i shall take concious effort to take care of my health now. see, when i'm not starving myself to death, i'm stuffing myself with every edible thing i can get my hands on. a few weeks back, i had been eating only one meal per day, only dinner. i cannot wake up for breakfast and i'm too 'busy' to eat lunch. this week, i have been eating all three meals as well as 48,000 little snacks in between.

aaaaaahhhh cannot take it anymore. i feel so heavy. a while ago when i was walking towards where i am now, i was feeling more than horrible. i felt like sneezing and puking at the same time. i cannot even swallow my own saliva because there's no more room for it anymore. this propmted me to look for the nearest toilet to blow my nose and just 'fix' myself up. fortunately my large intestine did not participate in these expulsion activities or it'd feel like more than hell already.

so there. i shall keep quiet from now onwards. but of course if just keeping things to myself becomes so unbearable, then i will not deprive myself of the joys of blogging.

time for maths lecture.

ciao!


guess who i bumped into

just came from maths make-up tutorial. make-up tutorial because i really cannot wake up anymore in time for my supposedly 8 am maths tutorial on wednesdays. so for today, i just anyhow chose a tutorial room and barged in, oblivious to who the tutor might be. and surprise, surprise! the one person under whom i have suffered much humiliation last year...NG WEE SENG! my bridging year maths lecturer! the professor with a minute stature but with a gigantic ego!

haha..but today i was set out to disprove the notion that i am stupid in maths. good thing i came prepared for the very last practice session, wherein we are given a problem set similar to one of the tutorial problems and 15 minutes to solve it. the method of solving was displayed for our reference, but i just stuck to my own style. probably to show wee seng 'hey i know this stuff too!' and of course to avoid confusion. i didn't get it entirely correct at first (even though this practice session is the easiest of the three), but the good thing is wee seng is quite gracious to reject our paper until we get our answers right. we are allowed to discuss with others, so my seatmate got my brain juice going again after freezing for a while just because of the fact that wee seng is in the same room as i am in.

earlier in the tutorial, wee seng was discussing about the different types of partial differential equations and the methods of solving them. i was all ears for i know i might get a blogworthy 'quotable quote' from him, and surely i did. he said:

"Really, the method of Laplace transforms is a NO-BRAINER."

ho-hum. yeah, i could also say that, but WITHOUT an iota of truth.


Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Champion

ripped this off from inq7.net. i'm also a de Quiros fan, thanks to wayne.

CHAMPION
Conrado de Quiros

FIRST off, it's a lesson for local TV. Next time it covers a blockbuster sports event, it has to do it in real time. The days when networks can be a little avaricious and air those things "on a slightly delayed basis" to crowd in commercials are over. Well before the Pacquiao-Morales fight was shown on Solar TV, the result was already known and talked about in Metro Manila.

I remember that in the 1970s and 1980s, only people in media knew the result in advance. The messengers in the office where I worked were among those who milled around the teletype, waiting for word about the result of a fight, with the intention of rushing off to some part of Greater Manila, as it was called then, and betting on a sure thing. Without fear of being caught cheating and roughed up.

Today, there are all sorts of media reporting events instantaneously. Radio was already broadcasting the result of the Pacquiao-Morales fight shortly after it started on TV. I had resolved to resist the temptation to look at the Internet and at my cell phone messages, the latter being where in the past I learned, to my chagrin, the ending of a fight just as it was beginning on TV, but I let one slip away. I saw a friend's name on my cell just past noon, and imagining he might have an urgent thing to say, read his message. Only to learn of Pacquiao's defeat. I felt defeated.

I was, of course, one of those who mourned his loss. Though while at that, I did not greatly envy him his monumental burdens from the start. It wasn't just his reputation and title at stake in that fight, it was the life and happiness of his country. The country had been pummeled by adversity, natural and woman-made, and needed a win badly to feel good about itself, or indeed have something to cheer about. Well, only Mike Arroyo and a slew of congressmen were there to inspire him. Better if they had sent Ynez Veneracion instead.

While at that, someone sent me this text message after the fight, jokingly quoting President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo: "My countrymen, the need to impose new taxes has now become more urgent. Naubos ang CDF ng ating mga congressmen sa pustahan sa Las Vegas [Our congressmen lost their CDF (Countryside Development Fund -- pork barrel) betting in Las Vegas]. We may now have to borrow from Mexico." That is the kind of joke that could make you die laughing.

Like most Filipinos, I expected a dazzling victory and dancing in the streets. My cable TV turned snowy early last week, a development I didn't particularly greatly mind (I use TV pretty much to watch DVD), until I remembered that Pacquaio was fighting last Sunday. I frantically called up SkyCable Friday, and they assured me they'd fix it in 24-48 hours. Friday came and went, and I called them again. The repairmen came Saturday afternoon and were friendly enough. They laughed when I told them the reason why I badly needed the cable fixed, and one said he himself wasn't watching the fight, he was afraid Pacquiao might lose. I told him not to worry: if Pacquiao's showing last December were any indication, he would flatten out Morales in no time. Morales had lost to Barrera, and Barrera had lost to Pacquiao, in a complete rout. Not to worry, I repeated, Pacquiao would take out Morales.

Alas, as it turned out, boxing is not Algebra. In Algebra, if A is greater than B and B is greater than C, then A is greater than C. In boxing, C can always be greater than A. Morales certainly was so, dominating Pacquiao pretty much the way Pacquiao dominated Barrera. Much would be made of the fact that Pacquiao suffered a cut midway into the fight, but he was already losing the fight to the more savvy Morales even then. The same way he did -- though it was ruled a draw -- to Marquez last year, Marquez clawing out of three knockdowns in the first round and reclaiming the rest of the fight with superior skills.

I still think Pacquiao could have made up, and will make up in future, for rawness with quickness and power. But he has to regain something he has lost tremendously in a couple of years, and that is the fire in his eyes. That was the one thing I saw in his fight with Barrera, and even with Marquez in the first few rounds, which wasn't there with Morales. A fire born of hunger, a fire sparked by desire, a fire fanned by an obsession to excel. It just wasn't there last Sunday, even before a head butt virtually closed his right eye.

I'm glad at least that public officials have commiserated with him, including President Arroyo, who said, "I praise Manny Pacquiao's courage, ability, and fighting spirit." Though I suspect the prepared speech for when he won was far more effusive. If I recall, the President preempted the showing of the post-fight analysis of the Pacquiao-Barrera fight by going on air to congratulate Pacquiao. But like I said, I'm glad at least for the commiseration, including Dick Gordon's "(This will) make (Pacquiao) a better fighter and a better champion in the future. There's nothing to be ashamed of." It has nothing to do with Joseph Estrada's or Robin Padilla's idea of "walang iwanan" [no one leaves anyone behind], it's just basic decency.

A fighter's mettle is not shown in victory, it is shown in defeat. Or indeed, as Muhammad Ali proved, it isn't shown entirely, or even largely, in the ring. It is shown outside of it, in life. Ali's greatest defeat wasn't in the ring and wasn't caused by any of his pugilistic archenemies. It was caused by the US government, which stripped him of his title and his license to fight because he refused the draft. As it turned out, that was his greatest victory, too. I don't know that Pacquiao will ever have occasion to fight a fight like that. I do know that the way he comports himself after this defeat will decide whether he will go the path of Muhammad Ali or Rolando Navarette.

Character. In the end, that's the stuff that makes for true champions


Tuesday, March 22, 2005
my pisay director look-alike professor.

after my CN1111 professor explained the method of solving tutorial 4 problem #3, he said, without batting an eyelash,

"...Then maybe you could create a little computer program and plug in the values to get the solution."

...pertaining to the scary integral looming overhead.

right.


Monday, March 21, 2005
crazy, beautiful

wala akong maisip na title eh. naalala ko lang yung movie ni kirsten dunst

one month na lang or so before my summer vacation officially starts.

syempre may kulang sa summer pero ok lang.

may naisip na akong perfect birthday gift for my sister!!! oh yeah she'll be turning 18 this year, so dapat special. weeeeee i'm so inspired to work na so i will be able to afford it. =) =) =)

ewan bakit kaya ako masaya? hahahahaahaha actually break lang to from statics. i was studying in the study room a while ago pero super cold so i've decided to take a break and get my sweater. and blog. and did some other stuff too just now pero paalis na rin.

babay.

ay tama, ngayon ko lang na realize na nag-ibang anyo na ang aking blog. ahem ahem sino kaya ang may kagagawan. biglang nag morph ang aking shoutbox at na shift sa itaas. kulang ata sa pansin. wayne dell??

*made a call*

WAyne Dell nga. sino pa nga ba. hehe...

AY before i go,

HELLO MARIA AGNES CHUA!


chox.

i have decided to call him chox. that will be my term of endearment for him.

chox because he is a lot like chocolate. he is dark, he is sweet, and i...(gulp)...love him.

i've finally decided to iron things out. i do not want to be unfair to the person who has proven himself worthy of the love that any person can ever give. i was skeptic at first because he was a friend. i have known him for quite a while already...the guy in my tutorial class who found most things humorous and also made me laugh almost all of the time we were together. the guy who was so fond of talking crap and from whom i learned how to speak rubbish. the guy who always called me lousy just because of my nationality. the guy whom i thought of just a friend and won't even consider dating because he is of the race i won't want to have anything to do with at a very personal level.

and then the unthinkable happened. he said something stupid. he told me he was falling for me.

at that time i was still gathering all the broken pieces of my heart and intermittently gluing them back together. my ex just told me he was already courting another girl. i knew it would hurt but i didn't expect my world to still fall apart. he is already my ex, after all.

chox had been there to keep my sanity. he would patiently listen to all my ramblings and inject insightful things that i wouldn't have thought of otherwise. he was there for me and that meant a lot.

so when he told me he (gasp!) loves me, i became all the more confused. i did not know what to feel. i could not tell whether i felt happy with his revelation. i did not know how to react. initially i was certain i was just going to dismiss what he said and just get on with my life. and of all people, why him?

but he pressed on. i began to see the side of him that i've never seen before. i didn't know that he could be extremely sweet and caring and understanding. he told me to just give 'us' a try and see if it works out. my mind was screaming a big NO but my heart was screaming even louder otherwise. and because i'm a sucker for the maxim 'follow your heart', the unfathomable happened. virtually there was no ligawan involved because i don't think it was applicable in our case. it's not in their tradition to court girls, and besides, i've already known him for quite a substantial period of time already.

we've decided to keep it a secret at first. we would both be the butt of cruel jokes if we had told our friends right away. his friends back in mauritius would question his sanity for having a Filipina as a girlfriend, and i'm certain my friends won't understand me too. i still don't understand myself either. my parents have never taught me to practice racial apartheid, but sometimes i just unconciously do it.

apart from the 'friends' and 'what-would-other-people-think?' factor, we also have cultural and religious differences. clearly we view things very differently. there was even a time when this was so apparent and we just pissed each other off. i cried. but no one had ever apologized to me as beautifully as he did. he held me in his arms, and with his soothing voice he told me to just think about our similarities from that time onwards. the funny thing is, we couldn't think of any right away. so he just brought up even the most vain reasons such as 'i like blue, you like pink. we both like colors. that's one.' and ' both of us have never been to japan. that's two.' . and while all this was happening, the song 'the reason' by hoobastank was playing on the background.

so what if the guy is a far cry from my ideal man based on my previous standard of physical attributes? maybe God is teaching me to look past what is just seen by the eye and appreciate what can only be felt by the heart. but lately i've realized that his eyes are most exquisite and his nose is so...manly. haha. =) and his skin color? i love chocolates anyway.=) and by the way, ever since i was a little girl i've always thought that French (his mother tongue) is sexy. haha.=)

and he just passed the test ultimate test last night. i've severely bruised and shattered his ego, and correspondingly i thought i would be pounded to bits. i thought that was the end of it. had it been another guy, maybe i would be in NUH right now. but because of the gentleman that he is, as i was sitting there having a hard time trying to get my foot from my mouth, he even had the valor to ask whether i wanted something to drink as he was rummaging for a sachet of MILO. i have already divulged to him all the horrible facts about me, told him the worst thing any guy could ever hear, and yet he still accepted me with open arms. i was bewildered. how could anyone ever care for me this much?

to my chox, i am deeply touched. i cherish you.

to people with puny brains, think whatever you want.

there. this is so liberating. now i won't have to hide anything anymore.


Sunday, March 20, 2005
pacman


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my hero fought valiantly



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but in life, we win some, and we lose some


it's ok. i am still proud of you, manny. (background info: i'm so partial to manny because we hail from the same city. i'm proud of him because he placed my city in the map so unlike the way the occasional bombings in my city do.)

i wish i had been there in las vegas to witness the match between pacquiao and morales. tito jeng and my cousin pancoy are so lucky. mama told me pancoy took his final exams earlier than his fellow classmates because he'd be going to the US to watch the match. d*mn lucky kid. the perks of being the lone son of one of the philippine's biggest celebrities' attorney.


Saturday, March 19, 2005

i am being unfair.

it feels rotten inside too.

i am not the type who enjoys causing undue stress to other people.

i am sorry for being like this.

i am tired.

i am going to sleep now.

tomorrow will be better.

i hope.


Friday, March 18, 2005
90/10 principle

This was emailed to me by my father, who is so keen on teaching me life's valuable lessons. I will be forever grateful to God for letting me have papa as my father. He is one person that I really look up to. I hope my future kids will be as lucky as I am now for having a father like him. He is the complete package. Looks, brains, and personality-wise...haha he is DA MAN..=) my father also has a great sense of humor, and there is nothing more attractive in a person than that. gee my mama is so lucky.


OVERWHELMED WITH STRESS?...TRY THIS... IT COULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE!

The principle of 90/10

Ten percent of life is made up of what happens to you; 90 percent of life is decided by how you react. What does this mean? We really have no control over 10 percent of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10 percent.

The other 90 percent is different. You determine it. How? By your reaction. You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction. Let us use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened but what happens next will be determined by how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter. She breaks down in tears. Then you turn to your wife and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30mph zone. After a 15-minute delay with a traffic cop and paying a fine, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started out terribly. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home but when you arrive home, there is a rift between you and your spouse and daughter. Why? Because of how you reacted in the morning. Why did you have a bad day?

a) Did the coffee cause it?
b) Did your daughter cause it?
c) Did the policeman cause it?
d) Did you cause it?

The answer is D. You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those five seconds was what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened.

Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "It's okay, honey, you just need to be careful next time." Grabbing a towel, you rush upstairs. After putting on a new shirt, you grab your briefcase and come back down in time to see your daughter off with a kiss. You arrive five minutes early and cheerfully greet your staff. Your boss comments on your good disposition.

Two different scenarios. Both started the same, both ended up different. Why? Because of how you reacted.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle. If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you. React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction can result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out, etc.

How did you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel, curse? And worse, try to bump them?

Who cares if you arrive 10 seconds later at work. Why let the bad driver ruin your day? Remember the 90/10 principle and do not worry about it.

The plane is late. It is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study. Get to know the other passengers. Why get stressed out when it will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90/10 principle. This principle is incredible and very few people know and apply it. That's why millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. Now that you know it, try to apply this principle And you will be amazed at the results. It could change your life!


Thursday, March 17, 2005
MY CUP OVERFLOWS

i just have to blog this.

my math midterm results.

i got 18.

the test was MCQ (multiple choice questions).

2 points each.

and the maximum mark anyone could get?

T-W-E-N-T-Y.

hahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahaha! wooooooooo hooooooooo!

PRAISE THE LORD....i mean, there is more to this. really...i won't be extremely happy if it weren't for the COMPLETE story.

see, i so badly wanted to blog right after taking my math midterms. i wanted to blog about how blatantly almost everyone in the lecture theatre was cheating. they won't even try to conceal their misdemeanor. the invigilators too were so lenient, like as if they were even encouraging the students to go and compare answers with one another because it's just a midterm test anyway (and not the finals yet). it was disheartening because the students were doing it in full view of the invigilators and yet they did not take any action. actually someone made a complaint in the forum about this, which spawned a not-so-lengthy thread for such a controversial topic. well, this is one of those instances when even if you speak up, the bad would still go unpunished. just read wayne's blog about whistle blowers.

anyway, during the midterm test, i didn't care about the rest of the world as i was minding my own paper. then when our lecturer said time's up, i just sat there and waited for my name to be called. this was when the more blatant cheating took place. there were over three hundred (or five hundred?) of us in the LT, and the lecturer was calling our names in batches based on our tutorial group, so of course there really was plenty of time for students to compare and change their answers. as the world around me resorted to cheating, i just froze there, staring blankly at my own paper but with a hundred thoughts running through my head. actually someone offered to 'help' me, but i firmly declined. i do not care if all of them get full marks and i get zero, as long as i know what i'm doing is the right thing. i was also singing praises to God, and i was refreshing my memory of the timely sermon of Pastor Butch the Sunday before my test. He told us not to fret if the evildoers prosper, for in the end we will all be judged. i was also thanking God for giving me the strength to resist temptation and allowing me to pass my test of character with flying colors.

and really, i cannot understand how some people cheat and still come out in the open and take pride in what they do. maybe they have a misguided notion that such a detestable act is in fact an act of being 'cool'? oh please.

the test was actually 'doable', in stark contrast to my physics midterm test wherein i only got 3/15. but i was still not confident enough just because of the fact that it's a MATH test. math and physics and i'm out. and the cheating thing for math...i just accepted right then and there my fate...i mean, it's very likely that everyone will get full marks except for lame people like me who would especially hold on to principles rather than to accept 'help' from other people. so i just repeatedly told myself 'It's better to have an honest zero than a cheated 100.'

but God is in control of everything. He just showed me His power and His grace tonight, when i read the email bearing my score in my math midterm test. i would like to believe that God sent an angel to answer my midterm test. i mean...really. i still can't believe i got 18/20! this is history! whoa! wooo hooo! and i still don't care if everyone else got full marks. 18 is way better than i had expected, and i got it the CLEAN way. i am so happy. =)

all glory and praise to God=)

now i am inspired to study even harder.=)



I'm writing this down because come any gift-RECEIVING time, i usually don't know what i want. when anyone asks, i just say 'oh, anything'. So now, after one month of soul-searching, i've come up with 5 (so far) things i want.

but of course if i have the extra moolah i'll just buy all these myself.

my wish list:

Levi's low-waist jeans

converse all-star sneakers in pink

body butter from The Body Shop

born lippy from The Body Shop

ok, ANYTHING from The Body Shop

actually i am writing this because i while ago, i came back to the hall 11 bucks poorer for having indulged in my fetish for kikay accessories in the central forum bazaar. sigh.


perk point pic

i'm really proud of the NUS Central Library. how geeky..but it's actually one of the spots i'd like to show my family just in case (and by some sort of miracle) they visit me here. haha. here's a pic of the 'Perk Point'. picture courtesy of Karen's freindster acct hehe.


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i almost fell in love with the wall. oh, but that's not me in the pic.


Wednesday, March 16, 2005
NO COMMENT.



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i just got my NUS centennial mug, yey! it's quite nice, and as expected, it's in blue and orange. a teeny bit of yellow for the star, and white for the font color. a while ago in the 10-min break for math lecture, sundeep told us that we can now get the centennial mug in YIH (Yusof Ishak House)...but what I heard was centennial 'MARK', so i thought everyone was gonna get a tattoo or something. hahaha.

and speaking of lectures...this sem, i have five lecture buddies for most of my lectures: siaw ling (girl), edina (girl), sundeep (guy), and rotana (guy). we all sit together most of the time for the lectures of our core modules: physics, math, and statics. what's interesting is that all of us came from different parts of this planet: siaw ling -malaysia, edina - indonesia, sundeep - mauritius, rotana - cambodia, and me - philippines. a while ago siaw ling asked us if we realize that all of us are from different places. sundeep and rotana were sort of surprised probably because they haven't really thought about it, but i wasn't. in fact, i've been wanting to blog about this sometime ago. i just think it's...for lack of a better term...beautiful. i mean, the fact that we all came from different walks of life and converging in one path at some point in our lives...it's just beautiful. we are all diverse yet we are friends.

let me digress. this post is going to be incoherent so just bear with me. i was disheartened upon seeing the headlines for the straits times today. it's about the philippines. my country, my homeland- which is going to the dogs and whose hope is only found in cigarette packets. and by the way, the straits times is one of the biggest and most reliable newspapers here in singapore. so that means, almost every singaporean would have read about the chaotic state of the philippines by now. just recently the cassava food poisoning that killed little kids was also in the straits times, and now my country is making headlines again because of the notorious Abu Sayyaf. this would just reinforce the notion that nothing good ever comes out of the philippines. it's so embarrassing.

the philippine government is so...F*cked up. i do not know how else to describe it.

i have to stop here. or else.


Sunday, March 13, 2005
head over feet

I've liked this song by alanis morissette since forever. hehe.

cherie, ceci est pour toi


I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now


Saturday, March 12, 2005

i asked God for a miracle and a miracle this day had been. thank you.


random ruminations of a girl who could eat an elephant right at this moment

ok, so i broke into somebody's email account.

peace. like that person does not do the same thing to me.

anyway, i was aghast upon finding out that "i" have been sending out sooo many requests to join my circle of friends for an online sms account thingy. what? i don't even bother about that said account. i don't think i have completed registering for it in the first place. it's so embarrassing. poeple might think i'm so desperate.

COOLNESS! i'm at the central library bus stop, waiting for A1. and i'm blogging. haha!

happy independence day.=)

i'm hungry. haven't eaten a single 'meal' for today.

i spent my saturday morning doing physics lab, afternoon doing CTW position paper.

i spent my saturday night in the library. pathetic.

but my groupmates for CTW are nice people, so it's ok.

NUS open house today. a lot of 'happenings' a while ago. i felt sorry for myself for one second for not being able to participate due to reasons stated above. but if i dwell on the negative side of things, i would be worse off. must have positive outlook in life. haha.=)


Thursday, March 10, 2005
beautiful freak


Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul...


i love this song. found the full lyrics in archie's blog. i really feel something for vincent. (van gogh, that is.) i like his style in painting. i found my art class in second year truly fascinating, when we took a peek in the lives of cezanne, gauguin, van gogh, and other art geniuses.


"And my aim in my life is to make pictures and drawings, as many and as well as I can; then, at the end of my life, I hope to pass away, looking back with love and tender regret, and thinking, 'Oh, the pictures I might have made!"

-Vincent van Gogh
-Letter 338 to Theo
-19 November 1883


yes, he had been dubbed as a freak. he works were not really appreciated during his lifetime, having sold only one artwork ( i think) before he died (er, killed himself). and one thing i could never forget about him is that he cut off his left ear when he and gauguin had a fight. the guy had gone bonkers for living such a miserable life. but still, he remains to be my favorite. yeah, maybe because his life is so tragic, yet beautiful.

*to be concluded*


Wednesday, March 09, 2005

HAY LIFE.

lahat ng ito ay isang malaking joke.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhhahahhaahahahhaaha!

nakakabaliw.

='(



i am sad.

but honesty is the best policy.

i am sad.


hep hep hep...

as i am about to retire to slumberland, something just struck me.

i don't hate physics anymore.

something good came out of my being a sleazeball in Newton's forte.

and now i shall sleep with a smile on my face, and hope that i wake up early for my 8 am math tutorial later.


Tuesday, March 08, 2005

why must the world be so cruel? why must my pathetic midterm test score be laid bare in the ivle for all the freshmen engin students to see? why must i be embarrassed like this time and again? why am i in engin when every sem proves that i am not fit to become an engineer? why can't i just draw and paint, live by the seashore, have a garden and maybe plant camote too?

why must i run out of dental floss? yes, i am the type of person who would floss at least twice a day. i am the type of person who would brush my teeth after every meal if it's possible. i am the type of person who thinks that not taking a bath (before going to bed AND especially before going to class) is an abomination.

apart from the members of my immediate family, only one other person appreciates my drawings even though i know for myself that they're not very good. i thank God for him.

until when will i be the butt of this cruel joke i am living right now?

last night (or the other night?), i was surprised (more of ALARMED) while i was checking out the internship website. i was made to choose my area of interest for the internship. i didn't choose ENGINEERING outrightly. i didn't know what i was looking for. i clicked for LAB ASSISTANT but they were only taking from the Life Science faculty. see, i don't know where i am going.

the future is bleak. i don't understand why i have to go through this.

but then, i don't have to understand.

so now i put my trust in the Lord for i know He will never fail me.

and i also hope that winter will never come during summer. haha. how sweet.=)


Monday, March 07, 2005
Forum madness 2

THIS GUY IS UNBELIEVABLE.


WORDS are my POWER... Look back to see what all i have made you think and write... You guys are unbeleivable & so easily influenced by me...

And talking about CS: This is a new IES Server http://ies.nus.edu.sg/games/stats/ --IES NUS Game server cs cz alpha

And now let us stop discussing all this and concentrate on the next online tutorial which is going to be released soon...

Happy studying...

Cheers

VaibhaV


and the replies? here are some of them..


putting up controversial threads and getting response from ppl is not wat u call having power...really man for a change get ur head out of ur ...u know wat...I have learnt from my mistakes...from now on i m officialy ignoring ppl like u with narrow opinions. i m sure this thread is getting deleted...totally not related(just mentioning some Q 15 doesnt make it valid). yash.

Arrogance is your power. I hope someone somewhere puts you in place before you think you're no less than God.

agreed!!! but how are we going to supply 1100 over student tomatoes and eggs? got any funds ? lol!! i cant wait.... i bet the others too cant wait!

i suggest smelly durians wrapped nicely in the physics paper that we crushed in our anger shd b included too... wat think ya nitin?

As long as it satisfactorily vents out your feelings for our dear Vaibhav...anything goes. However, the nominations board shall not take responsibility of anything else except eggs and tomatoes.

Very nice,But we have to ascertain who The Great Man is before that,any pics?


internship, anyone?

I was studying in one of the benches in the Central Library Forum when someone approached me to sign up for an internship thingy. I got curious and didn't hesitate to sign up. I just received an email from them, and I personally think that taking part in InternSG Internships Programme 2005 is something not to be missed.

But then, I think it's too early for me. I have to submit an online resume and a blank one would do me no good. And the renumeration is only $600 on average. I couldn't survive here during the summer if I would be making only that amount. So my main agendum this summer is to make moolah..preferably loads of it..and.. hmm later na pag meron na, baka hindi matuloy eh hehe.

there. im goin to sleep now.

sweet dreams.


Sunday, March 06, 2005
stuff

yehey.=) talaga namang walang mawawala kung mag-sorry. i'm pertaining to wayne's public apology. haha i even clapped my hands when i read this line:

So now, with much difficulty, and with all humility, I apologize to Joseph for causing him further stress especially that he is always stressed.


wayne does not usually do this. in fact, i think that this is the first time that he has done this. i just want to say that i'm happy and i'm proud of what he has done.

and finally, joseph has finally broken his silence. and from what i get, he accepted wayne's apology, but would rather hear it straight from wayne (of course, who wouldn't want to settle things personally?). but anyway, now all is well. i hope.

as for me, i also kept quiet about this the whole time these two dear friends were engaging in another blog war. fortunately, everything is ok now and i can comment happily. haha.=)

last night i called up my parents. we had a youth meeting before that and the topic was about honoring your parents. we were asked to rate how much we love our parents from 1-10, 10 being the highest. Of course i said 11. I love my parents so much, and the last thing that i would like to do is to give them a headache. Mama thought i called to announce something, which was not the primary reason i called, but since she asked...haha oh well.

I would like to add that I have probably the best parents in the world. haha!

got loads of stuff to do.

cya.

P.S. CYRIL! haha read mo chona.blogspot.com...funny xado..parang ikaw magbinuang..haha!


Thursday, March 03, 2005
the denouement

oh yeah, i forgot. the vaibhav character got a nomination.


Hello everyone,
I would like to start this thread to ask people to nominate Mr. Vaibhav Narayan as the PC1432 Postmaster of this semester.
Anyone who wants to second the nominee please reply.
Anyone else who wants to contest is welcome to start a thread. To be nominated the minimum required no. of replies should be 30. (This excludes my thread for the nominations)

I hope the award ceremony can attract a crowd larger than this years oscars. We shall provide free tomatoes and eggs.

Nomination Board:
Nitin Batra (FOE)
Tarun Sharma (SOC)

PS: Since there has to be some kind of course related stuff in this post...can anyone explain me the answer for question 15 of the midterm. (I got the answer correct but just asking for the sake of those who got it wrong. Though you are advised to start a new thread to post the answer)


hahahahahaha..


forum madness

sometimes i get my daily dose of laughter from reading the PC1432 discussion forum.

there is a physics virtuoso among us who is equally endowed with arrogance to piss mere mortals struggling to have just a decent enough grade. here are some excerpts of the flaming and counter-flaming done by supposedly mature and intellectual engineer-wannabes.

This guy started it all:


Here are the Midterm Examination Answers:-

1E 2C 3A 4D 5C 6A 7B 8D 9C 10A 11A 12C 13E 14E 15E

Please tell me if anyone of you want the solutions

I think the average score will be around 12.5

Enjoy...

VaibhaV


which instigated the longest thread ever in the forum..i couldn't post every reply of course, but here are some of the interesting ones.

(but before that, i would like to note that this VaihaV character assumed that all his answers are correct and decided to share it with us dimwits.)


what the hell are u talking about when u say the average score is 12.5.....more like 12.5%.....dunno where u get the statistics from....total nonsense

yaya he should mix around more to find out the general opinion of the paper rather than living in his own world =P

I think you are talking crap... its impossible to finish the paper let alone saying the average is 12.5.... I dunno why NUS lecturers like to set demanding papers and kill most of us... is it bcoz they wanna differentiate the best from the worst... anyway, wats the point of setting tough paper and in the end have to moderate... ridiculous...BUT it is a good challenge to our brain...


and then the guy is off to defend himself:

After some thinking...

Just wait... pause... think for a while... was the paper REALLY that hard... I mean ok.. the average may not be 12.5... It was just a guess from me from what i saw... I think it is really good if demanding papers are set by NUS lecturers which enable us to think creatively. Let me remind you my friends that University study is not just mugging up some formulae, solving some problems from serway n jewett and expecting exactly the same problems in the examination with only the numerical values changed... DOES ANYONE REALISE WHAT I MEAN TO CONVEY???

And every now and then i hear the words "died in the exam"--> I wonder if this is just a phrase for saying n the one who says it thinks he looks cool saying it or do you really mean it???

Not that i am flawless but yes, i think life moves on... Prepare well for the end term...

P.S.

When you say "anyway, wats the point of setting tough paper and in the end have to moderate... ridiculous... "  

what if i say..." wats the point in setting a damn easy paper and in the end everyone getting 100% marks...then how do you differentiate yourself from others???...aint that ridiculous"

VaibhaV


which instigated yet an avalanche of irked replies..


well my friends, we all know that there are always arrogant people any where in this world...so bother them, life goes on...:) wish everyone a nice day...

there are some students who study and study 24 hrs a day, knows nothin abt life apart from books.... and post unrealistic things(which shows he knows nothin abt real life) on this forum. I read ur postings but if i comment on them then surely they will delete my posting.... so nvm...

my 2 cents worth.... 12.5 ... u got to be sick in ur brain! i asked like hundreds of ppl and they found it sick hard. next, if you think this is to deffrentiate between the good and the normal humans......it could be, but to me,  its crap. cuz even some of the very good ones could not complete the paper. 1hour for that paper... impossible!... i would like to say another part of my opinion but due to this is a public forum I shall not! anyway ... it was very demoralizing to me when i did the paper... it also ruined my saturday nite thinking how badly i have done for this paper. if u did well, good for you , keep it up... but for a NORMAL human like me, i felt depressed when i did the paper and it was not challenging my brain.. it was making me look stupid !

Dear vaibhav..You may be exceptionally smart.. i am definitely not anywhere yr league..however..plz understand that in singapore..we do not hold those who post such stuff in high esteem in general..as u can see wif the number of replies that u have gotten..i am stoppin short of being crude..hope it wont be necessary..cheers..

Anyway,its quite something to see such commotion one single person can make.Look at the forum,the 2 topic by vabihav generates more replies in the forum than the amt produced in a week.


and finally, the guy who started it all ended it as well..


Ok... the average is 8.47.. Sorry for the confusion n panic ...

CheerS

VaibhaV


Wednesday, March 02, 2005

danger.

i smile for no reason.



desole si c'est toute la grammaire fausse... je ne pensez pas que
vous pourrez lire ceci de toute facon.

est-ce que ceci peut etre vrai ?

mon coeur finalement a-t-il donne dedans ? je t'aime deja ?

vous me rendez heureux.

vous me faites le sourire pour aucune raison du tout.

quand nous discutions au sujet de doubles integrales dans la classe
de maths, tout que je pourrais penser a etait la nuit passee, quand
j'ai ete enveloppe dans des vos bras et vous m'avez etouffe avec
le de baisers hehehe=)


je ne m'inquieterai plus de ce que d'autres pourraient penser.



i'm so happy=)

i got an email from niel and papa today=)

and, yeah, im just happy. haha.